We all want to loose weight at one time or another...but for those of us who have carried even more weight than others, it can become a 'dream'.
Many people look at over weight people and think-well if they just eat less, or just do this or that...I have met people who judge over weight people severely. I have been mistreated by people, rude looks if you even go into a restaurant to eat...
I have even been judged on a mission trip one time. This couple who had went with me, well...we went into town and went out to eat at a restaurant that had a buffet with a steak option. I did not eat any dessert, ate the veggies and some fruit, but had an extra piece of steak (actually it was my birthday that day and I was 'treating' myself) I was told later that is why I was 'fat'. That extra steak-over eating that day. It did not matter that it had been a special day for me-to treat myself. No that did not matter.
This guy had the nerve to continue with his rude comments....I had drove out with my auto, I did not have the peace about just leaving this couple at the side of the road-although I seriously did consider that option...many times. When driving home, I never ate anything at all-nothing in front of them. Actually for the rest of the week I did not really eat at all. That did not do my health good at all...fasting for prayer is one thing, I believe that GOD takes care of you, but fasting for other reasons-it destroys your health. Causes your body to go into a starvation mode and it is not always the 'fat' that the body lives off from. I really hated that guy for a long time. He was the example of the world and its view of people.
(lobster, shrip
Through out the years, we (Scott and I) have really changed how we eat. We never use to eat pork for example, except for occasionally some bacon in the morning and ham at the holidays. But then after a relative talked us into raising pork, we started eating a lot more pork. Bad decision. GOD never had pork as food. Pigs were NEVER considered food, so when he said we could eat anything, HE did NOT mean we could eat non food items now and consider them to be food! If that is so, we can eat paper, we can eat poison ivy, we can eat all non food items and they would be considered clean!
Now before you talk about the scripture in the new testament about peters dream, remember peter himself gave his own commentary on that dream-GOD was talking about the non-believer. Not pigs. In that dream animals were a symbol for people. The gentiles (non food animals) vs the Jews (the 'clean' food items). We really have to keep the scripture in context.
But for years, I was taught that we could eat pigs. I never really trusted this, but did. And by doing that, boy did our health go down hill......
GOD set the eating guidelines up for our health-not to punish us. The animal garbage disposals of this earth and its oceans, are not healthy to eat!
Lobster, shrimp, pork...all not healthy!
So now (for a number of years) we eat very healthy. We always did eat more fruits and vegetables, we actually use to eat a bowl of mixed vegetables for breakfast instead of ham and eggs!
The one thing that I did abuse my body with was Pepsi...I loved my pop! I would drink up to a 2 liter a day! (mostly fountain pop) I would spend the money to run to town just to buy a fountain pop! That artificial junk, along with all the high fructose corn syrup combined with a health problem that I already had-just about did me in!
I had a doctor tell me-just drink diet pop Ireena, it does not have the calories as regular pop does. So I switched. Now I did not have the calories, or the high fructose corn syrup-but had the artificial sugar that killed brain cells. Smart move.
My day would begin with water. Then a pop. A 44 ounce fountain pop.
I work hard, at which ever job I am doing-but just did not eat correctly. I would often not even eat anything until about 2-4 pm, but would have from one to two 44 ounce pops by then. Then I might eat a small item, and a huge meal from 6-8 pm. Not healthy. The food I ate was considered healthy, but it was at all the wrong times of day, and combined with all of that pop-well it did not matter if it was healthy food or not really!
Another mission trip, I took a doctor along. He is a pediatrician.
One time during a lunch, he says: "You are over weight and I have been watching you eat this week....."
I threw my spoon down from eating the soup, and looked at him with my eyes glaring-if I could have shot fire from my eyes at that moment and consumed him-burning him to a crisp-I would have. I began to yell at him about judging me, and how tired I was about men coming out here to do mission work and instead just wanting to 'fix' me about my food....
He said-"no, no...I am not gonna do like that guy did..."
(I had told him about that)
"I am saying..you should not be the size you are, you do not really eat enough."
What?
He then went on to say that he had been watching me eat (ok I was quiet this time) this week and really I did not eat much at all. He then went on to say, there must be something wrong, I said-well I have went to doctors too many times and they all say everything is ok..He said...I am a doctor, and I am saying there is something wrong. You should not be the size you are based on how you eat. It is not enough.
Well imagine that.
What I did learn, was I was substituting the pop for the calories of food-so not getting a lot of food, not enough really for my body to live healthy, but replacing those calories with pop. Pop is NOT a food, and is NOT healthy! I really just never realized how unhealthy it was!
One day, as I learned just how bad it was-I thought, time to give it up. So I stopped drinking pop cold turkey.
My blood sugar was always very low, even with all of that pop. I use to have to watch actually, as it would go so low that I was considered to be hypoglycemia (low-sugar).
Another thing I had going on which I have since learned a lot about, was I have poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. (PCOS) . This is when you have cysts and over all you just do not do well...gain lots of weight, even if you eat very very healthy. The doctors did not know anything years ago (in 1992 when I first had this syndrome) and instead of saying "Ireena I just do not know what is wrong." they would lie to me.
Now we know that this syndrome is a pre-diabetes situation. So diet would be extremely important!
So after I stopped the pop-cold turkey. A few weeks later, I began to feel so very ill in the morning. While at work (was working then as a nurse) I would be sweating away, weak, and shaky. Took my blood sugar-it was over 500. I had eaten a basic breakfast, hours before-of eggs, toast. The next day, I only ate eggs-all protein, as that should help balance my blood sugar a bit. No difference, still over 500 hours later. Then the next day, I did not eat any thing in the morning to see what it would be like-it was still very high. Time for a doctor visit.
Diabetic medication began, and eventually insulin too. Now I am on 3 types of pills and 2 insulins a day. Not good.
So back to dieting...I have been one of those who have tried them all. None of them work, even that one that was so popular for years-the high protein diet. Never lost even one pound.
Also years ago when a friend of mine -we use to walk about 5-7 times a week. Every morning, we walked from 2-4 miles a day. I was also working out in a gym at least 4 times a week. I never lost one pound. I tried that for 3 months. I should have at least lost a pound or two! But NONE.
I had pretty much decided that this was how my body would be forever. I missed jogging, I use to jog years ago. Actually the only way I could ever keep my weight down was to do major vigorous exercise.
Growing up I use to ride my bike into town all the time, and around the country-daily except for winter weather. I would easily ride my bike about 10-20 miles a day. Yes i really did that! I was thin, very thing actually.
So what I have seen is I can keep thin if I do lots, a whole lot of vigorous exercise! So that is why I would jog years ago, after Nalani was born for about a year, I was still jogging. (had been for years) but then I stopped....4 kids and one more on the way...I finally gave up 'my time' and quit jogging. The weight also came on.
So now...I have found a way to take this weight off...stay tuned for the diet diary...!
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