Missed phone call

I was in an area today where  I did not get a phone signal when my hubby called at his lunch hour. 


 We always speak at his lunch hour, every day- we have for years.  It is rare that we do not.  Today I missed his call.  Now, I have missed his call before, but I know that I will see him in a few hours when he was off work.  


Today, it was different.  I would not be able to talk to him for a few hours.  Today the missed call was something that made me very sad...


I could not even bring myself to listen to his message when we were once again in an area where I received a phone signal...I needed to listen to his voice when I was away from everyone else...because I knew the tears would flow.


We went out to see the Amish woman I already spoke about, apparently they need a Midwife in this area-and I like working with the Amish.  The land is not as close to the mountains, but is hilly, a gentle rolling type of land.  I always feel at peace when taking care of the Amish women, because they accept their pregnancy as a normal thing, a GOD designed plan, and feel blessed with the children.  


I felt at home there.... a little...


It was about an hour and 15 minutes from the town I am staying in, so on the drive back-I had to wait to listen to the message from my husband.  


Then,  when we got back, my blood sugar was so low-I needed to eat...again I had to wait. I would have to listen to the message in a little while. 


Finally away to my 'room' I went, and I could not bring myself to listen to his message, I just fell on the bed and sobbed. 

Scott and I do not say much when were on the phone, but just hearing each other breath is enough... I miss the sound of his breath...


As I was crying, and praying ...the phone rang.  It was him!  It was his break in the afternoon!


 I did not even know what time it was!


  We often do not talk during this time because he has such limited minutes, but today, we both needed it.  It was so lifting to hear his voice.  Each day I need that so I can go on.  


This is the way it is with our FATHERS voice too..    I need to hear from HIM-to hear HIS voice as HE directs me.  If I do not, I do not want to go on -making decisions with out HIM.  


Ladies, I have to ask you some difficult questions:-
*do you love GOD-YHWH? 
*REALLY???
*Do you long to hear HIS voice everyday? 
*Do you wait patiently to hear HIM speak to you for the day?
*Are you sad if you do not?  
*If you do not hear HIS voice, how ever HE speaks to you-why do you not?  


You have to make time to be still before HIM...you should expect to hear from HIM and if you are not, ask your self --why?  
HE does not leave you-
You have left HIM-- if you are not hearing from HIM.  You are most likely out of HIS will.  There is no
 in-between-you are either in HIS will or you are NOT.  
There is not a gray area for HIS will.  


And for your husbands ladies---do you long to hear his voice too?
How is your relationship with your husband?
Is it where GOD would have it be?
If you say no..and...
If it is not right-why?  


Are you committed to YHWH or not?


 If you are then it should be your desire to be committed to your marriage and committed to loving your husband too.  Sometimes that takes work, but your heart needs to be soft and open to that.


If you are not committed to your husband or do not feel that you love him-then you are really not committed to GOD either.  Stop right now and change that, do not continue in a direction of being out of GOD's will.  That is a dangerous area to walk in.


Because if you do not commit yourself to GOD and also to your husband, then you are out of GOD's will.  


My prayer for each of you is to learn to walk in the FATHER's will and in HIS ways and also learn to love your husband as GOD would have you love them.
Ireena